Letter:

Daughter,

I remember the girl you were when we first began.

You loved Me openly.

Expected Me to move boldly.

Prayed without filter.

Worshipped without fear.

You walked with Me in the garden—

the one you mistook for Me.

And for a while, it was beautiful.

Until the prayers weren’t answered.

The losses kept coming.

The ache didn’t lift.

You asked Me to come through.

And I didn’t.

Not in the way you hoped.

Not in the timeline you trusted.

And in that moment…

you stopped blooming.

You didn’t leave Me.

But you slowly stopped expecting Me to love you like that.

You stopped praying with the same innocence.

You stopped leaning in the same way.

You stayed… but something in you pulled back.

You thought I let you down.

You thought maybe I wasn’t who you thought I was.

But daughter—

the garden was never Me.

It was your image of Me.

And now, I want to meet you in the soil of your disillusionment.

You didn’t have words for what broke.

You just knew something did.

And you’ve been carrying it quietly ever since.

That weight has a name.

It is grief.

And it belongs here.

I’m not afraid of your grief.

I’m not offended by your ache.

I’m not distant because you doubted.

I’m here.

Still the Gardener.

Still tending what you buried in disappointment.

I never needed you to pretend.

I never asked you to perform belief.

I just wanted your presence.

Even if it’s tired.

Even if it’s trembling.

Even if it’s torn.

You thought trust meant believing I’d protect you from the pain.

But real trust?

Is knowing I’m still good after the pain.

You’ve grown now.

You’re not the girl who worshipped for the harvest.

You’re the woman who worships through the drought.

And daughter…

That is who I’ve been waiting for.

Not your perfection.

Not your performance.

But your presence.

Come back to the garden.

Not the one you built.

The one I planted.

It’s messier. Wilder. Less predictable.

But it’s real.

And I will meet you there.

Not to give you what you lost—

but to grow what you never thought you could hold again.

A faith that doesn’t shake.

A love that doesn’t retreat.

A voice that doesn’t flinch.

A garden that never needs to be controlled.

Come barefoot.

Come unsure.

Come honest.

I’m already here.

And I never stopped wanting you.